I just felt like writing this all down

Recently I have been so upset by a person I knew for a short time. I had been a wreck with all of her drama for months before I stepped aside and decided I wasn't going to deal with it anymore. That was just after Thanksgiving and it keeps rolling in. I am doing so poorly at this point that I am losing sleep over it and feel sick and stressed all the time. I have deleted people off my Facebook that may have associations with people who may have associations with her. I have had to block my Facebook page so that anyone not on my list can not see or message me at all. And anytime I try to defend myself, everything I say gets twisted and skewed. I haven't the energy to deal with this anymore and my most recent responses in this matter have been posted publicly on Facebook. To look at her page, you would think I was out to get her. You would think I intended to torment her and ruin her. All because I met the guy she was having an affair with that she had me believing was her boyfriend. When I found out the truth, I tried to reason with her and discovered that she was completely disillusioned about the whole thing. She has even gone as far as to tell me that things I was witness to happened in a different way. All making her out to be the victim of some malicious plot. She's claiming I hacked her accounts/emails and shared her private information with people. She claims that I am obsessed with the guy that she was having the affair with. I worry each night when I go to bed about the fact that this person knows where I live and where my children go to school. But I have no concrete evidence that it is her writings that are the delusion and not mine. So legally, there doesn't seem to be anything I can do about it. In an effort to protect myself, online at least, I changed all of my e-mails and passwords for everything I do. Tacked on extra security measures in places where that is possible. I have changed my network configurations at home to only allow hardware that I own to connect. I feel like I sound paranoid. But if it's true, is it paranoia? I do not know how far this will go. There has been no personal contact other than online since November 2011. I have had people, one was a mutual friend and one a person I had never met, send me messages on her behalf in an "attempt to help." I have archived all of that for my own protection, but I don't know that anything in these messages would hold up as proof because without the context and history, they would not read as threatening. I have tried to screenshot as much actual page data as I can from her Facebook wall, but she will frequently delete the posts shortly after someone will comment on them. I have since blocked her Facebook and any of her friends who had met me and/or contacted me. I don't even know if this makes sense and I am sure it's not in chronological order in any way. I just needed a place to vent. If you read this, thanks for making it this far. I feel better just getting it typed out.

Ranting and Raving

I feel like I should write more frequently but honestly, I don't lead a very exciting life so I really don't know what to write. This post will be pretty random and may or may not make sense.

I have 3 children, 2 disabled. Disabled in the sense that they are categorized as "emotionally disabled." My oldest son is now 18. When he was about 5, a co-worker suggested I apply for social security disability for him. I did, and within a few months I was receiving SSI benefits on his behalf. What a relief it was. When he was 6, he was hit by a car; he obviously survived since he is 18 now. There are "hush" circumstances, but basically at about 8 years old, my son ended up with a small trust fund, called a "restricted account". At about 13 years old in 2007, social security wanted "additional information" regarding this "restricted account." I submitted all the paperwork and everything was fine until 2 years later in 2009, then they were questioning it again. At this point they attempted to cease SSI benefit payments. We filed an appeal and it was decided in our favor. Then the following year, 2010, they did it again. This time they stopped the benefits without notifying me. By the time I found out what had happened, it was too late to continue benefits during the appeal process AND they want us to pay them back for all benefits paid from Jan 2008-April 2010. So, we have appealed this and are still playing the appeal process game. The biggest catch is that they are deeming the "restricted account" as an asset, even though we have had no access to it. Now, as I mentioned before, I have another disabled child. He has Aspergers Syndrome. I am not able to apply for SSI benefits on his behalf because they take all income and assets into account for the entire household when determining eligibility. This week we had a hearing regarding the "restricted account" because my son is an adult now and should be entitled to his money. However, because there is a pending case with the social security office, where they feel they are entitled to payment, the judge will not release the restriction on the account until the matter is resolved.

So to sum it all up, in 2010 they cut off my sons benefits due to an asset we had no access to, we cannot get benefits for my other disabled child and now, because of all of this, now that my son SHOULD have access to the "asset," he doesn't. The way I see it, the social security administration has been screwing over my family for years, but what can one person do?